Deejay Tu-Lox is among a few thriving podcasters in the Dancehall space, but before he started the My Tu-Sense Podclass in 2020, his mental health was on the decline.
The Twin of Twins member recently opened up about battling depression between 2017 and up to three years ago, after a failed relationship separated him from his son.
“Mi go through a serious breakup and when breakups involve kids and you’re a father who care fi yuh youth, cause you know dah something deh out deh; the stereotype is that men just get kids and cut, a nuh my thing that,” Tu-Lox said on the latest episode of The Cut.
“Matter of fact, at a point, mi try fi live down certain things because mi waan mi youth roun’ mi. So you gwaan wid yuh foolishness, see mi youth yah, mi good, and at the end of the day, it still never work because mi still end up lose the youth.”
The father of three explained that it was his only child who was raised in a nuclear family, and that he didn’t anticipate the psychological effects of the separation.
“When him leave, mi did tell myself seh eeh, yeah man, you know the typical age-old ‘yuh haffi tough’? So, mi seh gwaan, yaa idiot, mi will talk to mi youth pon Facetime cause a dat nuff a di woman dem do enuh, tun yuh inna Facetime father and think seh yow, just because you a man, yuh nuh normally care fi yuh youth so nothing no wrong if mi do that to yuh. So, yuh feel like yuh can deal with it and mi realise seh it’s like mi cya live without this youth… Mi nuh wake up a morning, mi nuh see him a go a school, all these things start play pon mi emotions and mi go through one serious depression, and when mi seh serious, mi mean really serious.”
The Ministry of Health and Wellness details the unending sadness and hopelessness associated with depression, and its effects on one’s appetite, interests and decision-making.
Tu-Lox was able to overcome the dismal period after remembering he had two other kids to show up for.
